It’s been a long time since I sat down behind my keyboard and put words to screen that are not some sort of news article or goofy anger rant. I lost the ability to write out my feelings because I became worried about offending people in my life. But I finally decided to let go of that fear and just talk to you like I did in the beginning. I am genuinely excited where this site is and will continue to achieve over the next months and years, but sometimes it’s nice to remember what started all of this and that is just being myself.
On an episode of TBK Live, a couple of weeks ago, I came out to our podcast listeners as transgender. And while I was a neurotic ball of nerves for 90% of that episode, I felt the weight of the god damn world lift off my shoulders. I can finally be myself without hiding who I am. And that alone is one of the biggest victories in I have achieved in my 36 years on this planet.
With that being said, we a listener email us and asked if I would talk about my transition. The struggles, the triumphs, and the moments that made me think, well that is fucked up. That is what this series of writings will be accompanied by our next episode of TBK Live.
Coffee, Wine, and AntiBOYotics (Pun!) will be a real and gritty look into things going on in my mind especially over the last year. I remember when I was younger and I would search constantly about being transgender, and in the early days of the internet, that was kind of hard to do. That is made worse by being at school and the computers would flag it as possible porn. I lived in a small town, dial up didn’t show up until 2008. (kidding) I hope anything that I type will help someone who is on their own journey. I felt as if I were alone, and I was the only person in the world that felt this way. Honestly those early days of the internet were an escape, a way to be the person I am and not have to hide it.
These series of articles are going to dive deep into some subjects such as sexual health, suicide/depression, dysphoria, and euphoria, and more.
For the first time in years, I feel excited to be writing again. I am not just going thru the motions; I am genuinely excited.
So, where do I begin? I think I know.
Hello, My name is Rebekah and I am transgender.